Finally! I am writing. It’s taken me a long time to get over my perfectionist obsession and just do something… anything, even if it’s my worst attempt. For the past three years, I’ve been struggling to organize myself and create a body of work that demonstrates I am competent at what I do. I tend to help others more than I help myself, and for the last four years, I’ve paid a heavy price.
I have a long story, but don’t we all? What’s special about me? Well, nothing. Compared to the billions of people on this planet, I am insignificant. And that’s humbling, and it’s my starting point. I am starting this blog as a means to document my journey as a human being. Today is the 30th of December 2022, and I feel it’s near perfect for a fresh start.
Here we go again!
“…near perfect…” I just had to think that, didn’t I? Ugh!
Well, I can’t stop being a perfectionist in one day, can I? He-he! (smirking)
So, the journey has started, and I am going to try to be consistent in writing and posting.
Don’t be fooled. I lied!
I am grossly inconsistent at things like sticking to a schedule, which is a turn-off, especially if you’re a client. Oops! Did I just say that? Oh! Sh*t!
It’s been a rollercoaster. I’ve learned some valuable lessons along the way. It’s 1:06 AM, and can you imagine that I am writing at this hour and just distracted myself from the main subject? Ugh! Eddd!
This is how my brain works. It jumps from stuff to stuff, and, believe or not, I am enjoying myself, right now.
Who knew writing could be this fun? Haha! Who am I kidding? In one sweep, some a**hole will come into the comment box and remark how much they hate my writing, myself and the very fact that no one cares.
I hear you! That’s right… I also don’t care. So, adios! And good luck with finding someone you can bully, you faceless piece of… Okay! That’s enough for one sitting.
Damn! You’re one piece of work yourself.
We know!!
Okay, okay! Geez, I didn’t mean to upset you.
Can we get back on track?
So, as I was saying… my perfectionist obsession has costed me a lot, especially on time and progressing career-wise. That said, I want to practice something relatively new to my psyche, and that is continuous improvement.
Continuous improvement is about getting to do something in phases, even when it is far from perfect. I am going to try this because it is way outside my comfort zone and against every fibre of my being right now. I can’t believe the fact that I am launching this blog using… (whistling)
What I am trying to say is that everything is lower than the standard I want and expect of myself, but you know what? Fu*k it!
It’s one thing to read and know stuff, and it’s one thing to practice what you’ve learned. I’m 26 at the time of writing this post, and I have no idea what 30-year-old me will be thinking when he reads our first post. He-he!
But what I do hope is that my thoughts and feelings expressed on a need to know basis helps someone out there who is struggling with trying to get his/her life together. I am desperate to mature, and become more responsible for my actions. I see a lot of things happening around me and in the larger society, which bothers me. All these and more have become a driving force for me to share an “uncensored” take on the sides of life I’ve observed are hidden from young people.
This is my first blog post on my domain, and it’s raw and 90% unedited. I don’t care about the conventional rules here. You will have noticed that I didn’t bother switching up the theme, or enhancing anything, before launching. I just launched it! And got into the writing, and this is how it’s going to all through till further notice.
Continuous improvement, Baby!
If you don’t like it, don’t complain. Kindly, get out of my space. Thank you!
Life is a one-way ticket. There’s no draft. The draft often times is the final, so to speak. And thinking about that analogy now makes me feel there’s a logical fallacy somewhere in that statement, but I am not fixing it now. If you blindly pick it and use it, I am so not responsible for your foolishness. I shall, however, address grave mistakes in future posts.
My objective of starting this blog is not to appease anyone, but to document aspects of my life in a way that is easy for me to reference and share some important experiences with the people I meet in life. By documenting some of my life experiences on this blog, which is accessible by billions, people who I do not know are going to come across it and read some of its content. I am fine with that. What I am not fine with is unsolicited feedback about how I should write, think, eat, sleep and poop. No, thank you!
Basically, I will write about my interests and things that appeal to me. I will not write about things I deem are socially harmful and can incite violence. What constitutes socially harmful and violence? I will have a blog post about this too. Just relax, okay?
I will refrain from socially harmful behaviours and comments as govern by the laws of the land I reside in. Moving forward, I will research into topics like hate speech and what constitutes it and all of that. I will also write about why it is influential to be kind and compassionate to your neighbour or a stranger, even when you’re angry.
Now, get out of here! A loved one needs you.